Shards

The earth shattered.
A huge hole but it did not swallow me - not yet.

Nothing is like it was -- only shadows.
A dark gray wash covers everything.

Others can see a different reality.
I remember what once was and cannot forget.

The old unease has been there too long.
Did I know even in the beginning?
Did I know the crab would dig in its claws?
Did I know it would never go away until it had won?

The pain, once numb, has throbbed back to life.
I push it down again and again but it is still there.