No, Not Any Easier

Having nearly finished with "Breast Cancer Awareness" month, now we move on to the holiday season. I just want to ignore it. Make it go away please.
Being there again for the memorial service wasn't too too bad. Well, bearable. But the dispersal of the ashes just doesn't bear thinking about. How can you stand at the top of a sand dune and watch as the remains of your first born child blow off in the wind? No, not good at all.